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A Decade-Old Prayer, Answered

8/15/2022

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God is good, folks.  I've been keeping busy with work, family and a few little side projects and it's taken me away from blogging, but I needed to pop in to yet again sing of God's faithfulness.  You will never be able to outdo Him in love, people.

This past year, I've seen my oldest son grow 3.5" taller than me (!!!), my middle son develop into a true social butterfly, and my youngest blossom SO QUICKLY into his daddy's little twin.  My husband has excelled with work, I've gotten comfortable in my newest role, and together, we've created so many wonderful memories for ourselves and our boys.  

God is so good!

And it turns out He wants to keep raining blessings down on our little family.  In June, Chris and I found out we were expecting again!  Chris' face upon realizing there was another little one on the way... my heart still melts.

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I should probably print this out and post it somewhere.  This was the very moment he realized I was pregnant.  It's impossible for me to look at it without falling in love with him all over again.  His response to children is lightyears different from John's.  When John found out about Vince, he was annoyed (I still have the video of him stomping off, angry).  When he found out about Nate, he claimed he was "fine" but clammed up for 20 weeks only to say he didn't actually want more children and instead wanted divorce. 

Chris on the other hand... you can see from his face how overjoyed he is to be bringing another child into the world.  He is SUCH an amazing father to not only Nico, but Vince and Nate as well.  He genuinely enjoys spending time with them, answering their endless science-y questions, and exploring the many facets of boyhood with them.  He enjoys the family trips we take, and he never pushes off his responsibilities.  He is a fully active parent and it's never something I have to coax or drag out of him.  He just IS these things, and I can't articulate how much I appreciate that.  

Anyhow, we are expecting our newest baby in February.  So far, our peanut is healthy and wonderful in all the ways.  The pregnancy hasn't been terribly hard this go around, but I'm definitely showing much sooner than in previous pregnancies.  I know that tends to happen the more children you have, but even I was surprised at how quickly I developed my little bump!  Not that I mind.  I love showing off the blessing I carry.  It was a grace denied to me for many, many years.

Vince and Nate are hoping for a baby girl this time around.  Poor Vince has been wanting a sister since before Nate was born.  Nate, I think, is hoping for a girl because he still looks to Vincent for cues in most things.  *Grin*  Nico, being so young, doesn't realize he's already a big brother!  I cannot wait to see that relationship.  He and this newest baby will be close in age- something I always wished for Vincent and Nate.  They'll have a built-in best friend.  Again, God is good.

So what about the title of this post?  What is my decade-old prayer that God has answered?

You might just be thinking that God answered my prayer for more children, and you'd be half right.  God has ABSOLUTELY answered that in a big way!  I had honestly resigned myself to having Vincent for so long, and rejoiced when Nathan arrived because he was truly a miracle of miracles!  Then Nico... geez.  God is beyond generous with me.  And now our newest baby... having a husband who is not only open to life, but actively excited about having as many as God will allow... they're overwhelming blessings.

But there's a much more specific prayer that my heart had uttered almost 10 years ago exactly.  It can be found here, in my archive.  
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That's right.  Ten years ago this month, I ran into a father with two sons: Vincent and Luca.  ​Something unspeakable stirred in the depths of my soul upon hearing Luca's name... an impossible knowledge that Luca (not that Luca, but A Luca) was meant to be mine but had been cruelly denied to me.  

​As I said in my "Darkest Secret" entry, I believed I was the mother of children I would never meet.  And while that was a terribly heavy cross to bear, I never once turned away from it.  I embraced it as best I could and trusted in God's Providence.

Ten years later, and He answered my soul's prayer.

In February, we will welcome our fourth son into the world- Luca.  God is SO GOOD.  My heart couldn't possibly be happier!  

And what's doubly crazy is that Chris and I arrived at the name Luca separately.  We were listing off "Italian names" for both boys and girls when we came across "Luca."  Immediately, I was transported back to the moment I wrote about in the blog.  I didn't say anything for a moment, because I was too busy feeling all the emotions that almost-forgotten memory brought back.  Chris, though, quickly said "I like that one!" and it went to the top of our list.

This weekend, we received confirmation that we were expecting a son... Luca.

Luca.  I still can't get over the myriad miracles God continues to bless us with... this most recent one ten years in the making.

God is good, folks.  Impossibly, unfathomably good.  Trust Him.  In all things, trust Him.

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MB
8/27/2022 11:59:50 pm

I'm squeeing all over the place for you! God is good is right! Wow. 10 years and look at the rabbit He pulled out of a hat for you.

I think back sometimes about the convos we'd have about you struggling with your POS ex. You never wanted to rock the boat or say the whole truth because you never wanted to have anyone hating on him like they all would've had they known. And you've still kept your mouth shut about so much of it. I know you do it to protect your kids and probably his mom cause I know you love her and all but you're a better person than I am.

But anyone with eyes should be able to see what a trash human being he was. Probably still is. He'll never grow up. Probably still playing dodgeball or cornhole or whatever crappy sport he's into with people half his age. Probably still making those stupid clown videos that'll never go anywhere.

Meanwhile, look at you. You never let any of his stupidity define you. I won't say you've become a new person, because you've always been an inspiration, but you've become a more you YOU (if that makes sense). Like, you've reached "peak Gina".

You've got motherhood on lock. You've got work on lock. You've got all your side projects doing so well. You're being recognized by people within the community for all the things that you've always done and can finally do freely- without him constantly dragging you down.

As someone who has been around, I feel like I'm an expert on all the BS you dealt with and to see you not only overcome it, but flourish like this: WOW. I couldn't be happier for you. I am so proud of you, I am so grateful that God has blessed you so much, and I hope to follow in your footsteps. You really are an inspiration to me and to Angie, too. Keep blogging. I want to see more of this.

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MB
8/28/2022 12:04:32 am

Like you, I'm so glad Vince and Nathan have a proper male role model in their life. I know how much you worried about that before he moved home. When Vincent shook my hand at dinner the other night, I almost died. He's taller than me and shook my hand like a boss. I know Chris was working with him on that and it shows. These are things that John would never think to do, but Chris takes on this naturally and it shows. You are SO GOSH DARN HAPPY anymore, and it makes my heart happy for you. You deserve nothing less and God certainly made sure you were covered.

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Me again
8/28/2022 12:07:12 am

Oh gosh last one sorry I promise.

Luca. Did you know that this is the year of St. Luke? How crazy is that? As if the stars couldn't possibly be aligned more perfectly, God had this all planned out from even before you asked Him 10 years ago. He really loves you.

Gina
8/30/2022 12:31:13 am

LOL- I actually didn't know until Sr. Maggie told me! I had told my Dev. team about the pregnancy and when I told them all his name, she PMed me and said, "Did you know this is the year of St. Luke? I'll offer my Mass tomorrow for you both!"

It was the sweetest thing. :) I did, however, feel like an awful Catholic for not remembering that. Whomp whomp.


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