I had recently come across a pilgrimage that I wanted to attend. It's relatively close to home, and I really felt like it'd be a huge spiritual bonus for me. Unfortunately, God let me know (repeatedly) that I simply am not ready to take that step just yet.
That wasn't an easy thing for me to accept. Still kinda bugs me (I'm being honest). Truth be told, however, I trust that God knows best and I accept His decision that I'm simply not "up-to-snuff" enough to take part in so great a gift. Upon further reflection, I know He's right. I'm not ready. For as much as I'd like to claim I'm ready... for as much as I'd like to believe I'm "spiritually grown," I'm not. I realize this. It's a humbling realization, too... especially with God putting road-block after road-block up for me, each time patiently saying, "Nope. You're headed in the right direction, but can ya slow down a bit so you can actually take in what I'm trying to teach you?"
So bah. Even though I'm really bummed that I can't go this month, I know that He's trying to make me ready to accept that gift whenever I'm lucky enough to be blessed with it.