Trusting God

I was talking to a good friend of mine the other day (from HS... that's us dressed up the murderous broads from Arsenic and Old Lace before we graduated to faux-gangsta smokin' outside a candy shop in Kansas).  We were talking about faith in God's timing and how much of a gift it can be.  

I said to her: 

Patience? Fortitude? Gentleness? Grace? PFFFFFT. I was given NONE of that. But faith and a genuine trust that eventually He'll get around to sorting my special brand of stupid out? Oh man... He fully recognized where I'd need the most help, so He just straight DUMPED that into the mix when forming me. 

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This theme of trusting in God's ability to sort things out has been a mainstay for me all my life.  I've never really worried about how something would turn out.  I always just expect that since God's handling it, it'll work out for the best.  

Before Chris moved back home, my "other mother" would ask me often about plans to get him home or when he'd find a job, or how we'd plan a wedding without knowing if or when he'd ever be able to leave Kansas.  I'd always sorta laugh it off because none of the worry made sense to me.  We were engaged, we had a date, and God would simply have to work out the details.  He was the one who set us up, after all.  I couldn't image Him forgetting the crucial piece of getting him home.  *Grin*

And here we are, almost a full year later living out our happily ever after, just as we intended.  Why?  Because God is good and challenges that seem impossible for us are small potatoes for the Guy Who Created the Universe.  

Even in my own career, things have worked out when I simply left things in His Hands.

Because of my ex-husband's thoughtlessness, I was left jobless after Nate's birth.  I knew I'd have to find work ASAP so I could provide for my kids, get health benefits, and secure a financial future for myself and my boys.  I mentioned before how so many women in my position were scared out of their wits​, but that was never me.  I knew God would ensure we were taken care of, and honestly, my career took off.

I was offered an incredible job that enabled me to be with my kids, nurse Nate, pump in private, and do what I loved doing - all for $10k more than I had been making at my previous job.  When it was time to move on from that position, I was handed an incredible opportunity that has seen my professional experience EXPLODE.  Six figures are within reach for me at this point (should I choose to pursue the for-profit world), and that's something that I never would have considered possible while anchored to John.  His negativity stifled so many professional aspirations, and being rid of that was genuinely a blessing.

I basically strapped rockets onto myself and shot through the ranks, networking with high-level people on high-level projects that opened so many doors to me.  As a result, I now have a dual-Directorship in a field I adore.  Every day I'm learning something new, meeting new people, and enacting lasting changes that make REAL differences.  So while my work can certainly be challenging and frustrating like everyone else, at the end of the day, I feel good that the work I'm doing is having a positive impact on the community.

I recognize how blessed I am to be able to say that.

And the best part?  Because I'm in such a highly visible field doing highly visible work, I've made a solid name for myself.  Just this week, I was approached by two different employers looking to poach me!  Both would-be employers got my name from past colleagues who threw my name into the hat before giving me the heads up.  Ha ha!

I'm not saying this to be boastful... I'm saying this because I promise that if you just "let go and let God," He will never disappoint you.  In fact, He'll go so far out of the way to blow your socks off that you will never doubt His ability to sort things out ever again!

God is good... He really is.  In so many ways that we'll never understand.  I'm legitimately proof of that.  Chris is proof of that.  My kids are proof of that.  YOU are proof of that.

So trust Him, guys.  Trust Him.  

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