You Read My Blog?

GAH! Where did you come from, Shark?!

I attended a bridal shower this weekend with some gal pals of mine.  We were happily telling ridiculous stories and sharing anecdotes when something caught me completely off-guard.

While sharing a story about Vince, one of my friends said "I was reading about [his sensory issues] on your blog."

I remember doing a double take and saying, "I'm sorry.  What was that?"

I thought I'd heard her wrong.  Only a few of my friends know I blog, and given the subject matter, of those that know, maybe half would care to read.  So imagine my surprise when she reiterated,

"On your blog.  I read about the stuff with Vince on your blog."

I don't know how long it seemed to her or anyone else at the table, but the next few seconds felt like 10 minutes to me.  I would say "So many things were running through my head!" but in all reality, only one thing was spinning crazy circles:  She knows about Myla. 

I didn't want to appear as if I was freaked out, so I did a mental exercise of "Stuff-the-dirty-laundry-into-a-closet-and-your-guests-won't-realize-you-live-in-a-pigsty" and continued the conversation as if I didn't just have a minor panic attack.  In truth, though, I was rattled. Given how silent I've been about Myla to friends and family, I felt emotionally undressed when I realized someone else knew my secret.  

And yet, to protect that secret, I needed to immediately act as if nothing was amiss.  Had I acted on the impulse to hyperventilate, I would've gotten questions, and questions would've been ugly.  No one wants that sorta drama at a bridal shower (or anywhere, really), so I mentally ticked off a prayer to God and said, "Welp, I hope You're amused."

This incident has been banging around in my head the last few days.  I finally asked the friend how she found out about the blog.  After all, it's not like I post it to my personal page or anything like that.  Apparently she'd found out the same way (and about the same time) my other friend had a few months back (I posted about it here).  

*Shakes fist at Facebook*

At least I know I fixed the problem already, but still... having her unknowingly confront me with this in a completely unexpected situation has made me really skittish.  How many other friends / family are reading this?  

It's just a surprising notion.  I thought I was just talking to other Catholic moms and the students googling Christian tradition.  

I share this blog with very, VERY specific friends.  Obviously it's open to whoever, but I am just surprised when folks beyond the "Catholic Mom" group are interested to stop by.

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